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Where have you been?
Cause I never see you out
Are you hiding from me, yeah?
Somewhere in the crowd

Where have you been, all my life?

You can have all you want
Any way, any day
To show me where you are tonight

when i remember my past love it's very inevitable to miss the feeling of being loved and in love. i really don'tknow why am i writing this entry for all i know is i was supposed to be mad at him and even curse his happiness for all the pain he gave me. arrgh it has been almost six years since we broke up but then i admit i still miss him. and this stupid thing in my mind that i still want to talk to him and listen to his explanations why he has done those things, and the fact that the things he had done was super foul, i am still hoping that he would still knock on my door and say his apologies.

i know that my "perslab" entry seems to be that i have already moved on, but this stupid part of me is coming back when i remember the love we have had i know life must go on and everything happens for a reason, but....

he's always in my dreams, chasing me and kneeling in front of me, maybe that's why i'm like this again

aarrrgh!but then, when i was browsing a while ago, i've seen this Prayer of Healing and i really hope this could help me..sigh

A Prayer for Healing...Lord, I come before you today in need of your healing hand. In you all things are possible. Hold my heart within yours, and renew my mind, body, and soul. I am sad, but I am singing. You gave us life, and you also give us the gift of infinite joy. Give me the strength to move forward on the path you've laid out for me. Guide me towards better health, and give me the wisdom to identify those you've placed around me to help me get better. In your name I pray, Amen

i hate myself when i'm like this, because i know i deserve to be happy