For everyone’s sake
After ten months of silence and before we end this year, I will now speak up what really happened…
september 2006
my dad’s business is already going down and it came to the point that my sis and I can’t pay tuition fees on time so that my tito (mom’s eldest brother) offered help but he is going to assign my dad at Pangasinan, he will be the one who will manage the bottle washing plant there.my dad and mom has no choice so they grabbed this opportunity.it’s our first time to be apart from daddy.though before mommy needed to work at Laguna for the sake of us but still she is going home here at manila every week, so its ok…but, dad’s case is different the travel time is five hours and the fare is so high and he can’t leave the plant just that…it made us so difficult…but later on it made us good and mommy is always there to make us understand how important it is..
we celebrate Christmas and New Year with daddy but January 3 he needs to go back to Pangasinan…=(
december 28, 2006
my phone was snatched at Session Road at Baguio…damn!!!ahehe…no phone na tuloy…
january 2007
I noticed that my friends were already cold to me and I don’t know the reason why…I just thought that it was because of our thesis so I just let it pass…when I talk nobody listens so I just kept silent all the time…thank God joey is always there to sit beside me when my closest friends have their own businesses…
february 8,2007
before our school’s Tarlac- Baguio Trip, my mom talked to me about dad’s and her plan for this year.she said that after my graduation they are planning that she and janna will accompany daddy there at Pangasinan for janna is still studying, she is only grade six that time and the school she is in wasn’t good enough already…and they need to go together with daddy there because of so many rumors that dad is like this and like that because of the “jealousy”…it really made me feel bad because nineteen years of my life I’m in a complete family but its ok kase nakabaliw kaya magisa..diba? though on the other part it makes me happy at least I can learn to stand on my own feet…
march 7, 2007
baclaran day, mommy is always attending Novena Mass every wednesday.that day she told me that she will go to divisoria after mass…so I went home early because janna will arrived at 4…when I arrived home mommy was already there exhausted and everything…janna was already too..I asked her what happened…she told us “muntik nako maaksidente!” it made me felt weak and crying but I didn’t show up, so I seated down and asked her
“huh?bakit po?”
“pagbaba ko ng jeep yung jeep na kasunod ang bilis-bilis tumakbo kung nakababa agad ako putol paa ko…”
I am so afraid and we hugged her…I can’t help it so I said “magbibihis lang po ako”. I go to my room and cry, thank God that nothing happened....i told to myself that from that day on I will always go home early na…wala lang…it’s just that I’m so afraid that if something happens toany of my family member I’m not there so I just wanted to go home to accompany them…
march 12, 2007
my babyangel’s and I’s first anniversary…I’m very happy because we are still in love with each other even we’re not in each other’s arms he needs to help their mom to work at Qatar…we celebrated it as if we were together personally the whole day…so sweet… at a resort, we hold hands, hugged, kissed, sing along, wait for the sun come down while I’m lying at his chest and wait for a shooting star to wish that this will come true..ahehe…so sweet talaga…he really gives me a “nikikilig” feeling…and he wipes away my problems and my tears…
march 15, 2007
I knew that daddy and mommy were arguing about some things…mommy opened up to me crying I feel like crying too but again I didn’t showed up because I know mommy would feel bad if she saw me crying…
it is so hard to be brave in front of many people but deep inside I’m so weak crying in the corner, asking for help, but there’s no one…my friends are so cold, im afraid to tell them because I feel that when I’m with them there’s no space for me I feel like I’m left out..because once I’m speaking but no one listens minsan barado pa ko so ako nalang lumayo,umuuwi nalang ako at least doon nakakasama ko si mommy…pero andami kong nalalaman na sobrang sakit para sa pamilya namin…pakiramdam ko nilayuan nila ako kase di na ako gaano sumasama sa kanila na kala nila si arthur ung priority ko…eh kahit nga si arthur andami din naming problema wala nang time for each other but still finding free time lagi pang misunderstanding pag naglalambing ako, lagi pa siyang nagkakasakit…
sobrang gulo ng utak ko nun dahil alam ko may sama ng loob parents ko sa isa’t isa ambigat ng pakiramdam…buti nga nadadaan ko sa ngiti eh…sobra…
tapos dumating pa sa point na nagkasagutan kami ni ate grace one of my closest friend sa tropa a day after our graduation, yun yung grad kase eh…napansin din un ni mommy na hindi nia ko pinapansin ung lumalapit ako taz parang invisible ako si carol si man si shy si joan si Marianne si roni si joey lahat ng classmates naming pinansin nia pagdating sa PICC ako lang hindi…pinalampas ko un…kase nga graduation...tapos paguwi namin, sa car nagopen si mommy “bakit ganun si grace di namamansin?kahit sana gnreet nia lang kami as respect dba?”I remained silent ayoko umiyak pupunta pa kami birthday and triple celebration ng graduation sa pamilya…taz un kinabukasan, tinawag ako ni mommy…un di ko napigilan I told her everything na naging cold nga sila sakin…un sumama loob ni mommy kase kala nia ok ako sa tropa ko taz ganun mangyayari…hai un…
isa pa nung birthday ko wala man lang nakaalala sainu…nung araw ng birthday ko pakiramdsam ko wala na ko sa inu...=(
taz lately lang nakatext ko si caun isa din xa sa closest friend ko sa tropa and we opened up about it…I thought she will understand me but she told me that I’m selfish because they thought bga na arthur is my priority…sana naisip nio kahit konti na mahal ko pamilya ko…it’s not being selfish naman eh…it’s just that I want to spend time with my family because we’re not good and soon we will be apart…ok lang pagisipan niu nako ng kahit ano pagusapan niu nako wag lang pamilya ko…kung pinapakita ko man sainu na ok ako ayoko lang naman magalala kau sakin eh…I think its better na kase ang hirap pag pamilya na ung paguusapan eh…ung kay arthur kase at least kaya ko pa iopen up ung problema namin…ung sa pamilya ko hindi ko parin kaya eh…un kaya ako lumayo nalang kase pakiramdam ko wala na kong space sainu…sinubukan ko magopen pero walang nakikinig eh…un ung masakit eh…
taz nung wala na dito sina mommy ung panganay nalang lagi kong kasama dito sa bahay…lalo akong nadown kase instead na palakasin nia loob ko kung anuano naririnig kong mura na never komg narinig sa magulang ko…
sorry kung ngayon lang nagsalita hindi ko kaya eh…un lang sana patawarin niu ko….sana maintindihan niu…mahal ko po kayo eh sobrang higit pa sa isang kaibigan ingin ko sainiu ayoko po mawala kau sakin pasensya napo mahal ko din pamilya ko…sana maintindihan niu….sana we can start again…sorry…
april 2, 2007
break kami ng mahal ko…di ko alam nangyari…hai…
april 9, 2007
sinama muna ako nina mommy sa Pangasinan ng makapag isip isip makagusp din ng maaus
april 10, 2007
gabi na nun…we will buy things for the house…nang magmukhang bahay naman…paalis na kami nun may dalawang babae sa may gate ng subdivision tinawag si daddy “sir,san kayo?”taz pinakilala kami ni daddy ****ung dalawang babae kapal ng mukha sabi “may asawa pala kayo kala namin wala…****talaga…eh before pa andami na tsismis tungkol kay daddy….un away sila…just look back on my april 10th entry…
april 11, 2007
mommy, janna and I go back to Manila(with swollen eyes) ahehe…we left daddy there sabi sakin ni daddy”sasama ka?”taz umiyak lang ako anghirap eh gusto ko magpaiwan kaso wala naman kasama magbiyahe sina mommy,,,,daddy hugged me tight that made me cried so hard…
april 12,2007
anu meun dito??ahehe…birthday ko…eto lang ung birthday ko na hindi ako happy…grabe iyak ako ng iyak ahehe…walang bumati sakin…uu binati ako ni arthur pero lungkot padin ako…sabihan ka ba naman “may iba nako..”wow birthday gift ba?”taz d ko kasama parents ko pareho magkagalit pa…wala din bumati sakin na friends ko…worst birthday!!!damn!
april 15, 2007
we go back to Pangasinan, un buti ok na sina mommy at daddy…my tito hired me for awhile as file maintenance, basta lahat ng computer works doon…
may 3, 2007
my ahia and tita go there and we go to Baguio…un di ako nagenjoy may namimiss kase ako eh…
may 5, 2007
sumama ako sa manila…may interview ako sa ortigas eh…first time!hahaha…un looking for work na pero anghirap eh…..
I stayed at manila for a month taz wala sobrang depressed buti nga di ako natuluyan wah hahaha….loko lang…taz un sinama ulit ako nina mommy sa Pangasinan
july 2007
pumunta si ahia for vacation…sumama ulit ako pagbalik wala lang.i realized na dito buhay ko sa manila eh…
august 25, 2007
nagkita kami ni jarmaine (pakner coh) bestfriend ko since first year high school…after four years nagkita ulit kami last na kita naming entrance exam pa sa st. paul ahehe..un…wala lang kain all day.,..hahaha
september 6, 2007
dayoff ni tita beng so we went to novaliches wala lang bisita kay lola, saka sa mga maliliit kong pinsan na alaga ko…ahehe
september 20, 2007
sa wakas sumama si bopbop sa Pangasinan…ahehe…nakumpleto ulit kami…katuwa ansayasaya…we attend mass at Our Lady of Manaoag, enjoy the place*mostly restaurants..ahehe..katakawan*,support janna at her cheering…
october 10, 2007
we went back to manila...i passed many resumes before I go naman eh pero ung mga pinupuntahan kong interviews arrgghhh…
october 17, 2007
nabadtrip ako sa bahay eh ahehe,..wala lang ahia kase m16 nanaman hahhaha…ub pumnta ako kina manila taz nagharbour kami…
taz un wala na masyado happenings…tambay sa smith (cousin’s house) wala lang dsl sila nakikiinternet…punta makati at ortigas for interview…
october 22, 2007
nagalaga ako ng bata hahaha…si yesha iniwan sakin ansaya…hahaha 4 years old,…apat na araw lang naman ahehe
november 1, 2007
pumunta kami sementeryo…sa holy cross sa novaliches sa lolo kong intsik…hahaha…
november 5, 2007
naglaba ako nun eh hahaha nagsasampampay kase ako nun eh bigla nagtext si caun nagyayaya sa mcdo birthday nia…un kita kami…kasama nia officemates nia sina janet and rachel…un..ahhehe
november 17, 2007
galing smith nakikain kasama ko si tita Arlene saka ung dalawa ko pang pinsan (Adrian and Justin) taz punta kami rob place taz nagtext si manila puunta dw ako kanila celebration ng birthday nia…tsk3kain nanaman hahaha..kumakain na kami actually nung nagtext siya eh..un…pumunta nalang ako for appearance wah hahaha…un andun na sina caun, shy saka si jp(bangag na officemate ni shy hahaha)peace man…taz maya maya dumating si ate grace…un aheehetaz un di na ko nakakain sobrang busog ice cream nalang hahaha….taz un 10 nagkayayaan magbar...sa malate (wah first time hahaha)un andun na ung officemates ni caun…mga bangag na peo cool ahehe…un uminom kami light lang naman un lang naman kaya ko eh 1bote at kalahati ahehe…good girl ato…wah hai sorry absta sorry kung sino ka man…happenings lang naman…if ever na mababasa mo to sorry…un nakitulog kina janet…2am na kase un eh…
After ten months of silence and before we end this year, I will now speak up what really happened…
september 2006
my dad’s business is already going down and it came to the point that my sis and I can’t pay tuition fees on time so that my tito (mom’s eldest brother) offered help but he is going to assign my dad at Pangasinan, he will be the one who will manage the bottle washing plant there.my dad and mom has no choice so they grabbed this opportunity.it’s our first time to be apart from daddy.though before mommy needed to work at Laguna for the sake of us but still she is going home here at manila every week, so its ok…but, dad’s case is different the travel time is five hours and the fare is so high and he can’t leave the plant just that…it made us so difficult…but later on it made us good and mommy is always there to make us understand how important it is..
we celebrate Christmas and New Year with daddy but January 3 he needs to go back to Pangasinan…=(
december 28, 2006
my phone was snatched at Session Road at Baguio…damn!!!ahehe…no phone na tuloy…
january 2007
I noticed that my friends were already cold to me and I don’t know the reason why…I just thought that it was because of our thesis so I just let it pass…when I talk nobody listens so I just kept silent all the time…thank God joey is always there to sit beside me when my closest friends have their own businesses…
february 8,2007
before our school’s Tarlac- Baguio Trip, my mom talked to me about dad’s and her plan for this year.she said that after my graduation they are planning that she and janna will accompany daddy there at Pangasinan for janna is still studying, she is only grade six that time and the school she is in wasn’t good enough already…and they need to go together with daddy there because of so many rumors that dad is like this and like that because of the “jealousy”…it really made me feel bad because nineteen years of my life I’m in a complete family but its ok kase nakabaliw kaya magisa..diba? though on the other part it makes me happy at least I can learn to stand on my own feet…
march 7, 2007
baclaran day, mommy is always attending Novena Mass every wednesday.that day she told me that she will go to divisoria after mass…so I went home early because janna will arrived at 4…when I arrived home mommy was already there exhausted and everything…janna was already too..I asked her what happened…she told us “muntik nako maaksidente!” it made me felt weak and crying but I didn’t show up, so I seated down and asked her
“huh?bakit po?”
“pagbaba ko ng jeep yung jeep na kasunod ang bilis-bilis tumakbo kung nakababa agad ako putol paa ko…”
I am so afraid and we hugged her…I can’t help it so I said “magbibihis lang po ako”. I go to my room and cry, thank God that nothing happened....i told to myself that from that day on I will always go home early na…wala lang…it’s just that I’m so afraid that if something happens toany of my family member I’m not there so I just wanted to go home to accompany them…
march 12, 2007
my babyangel’s and I’s first anniversary…I’m very happy because we are still in love with each other even we’re not in each other’s arms he needs to help their mom to work at Qatar…we celebrated it as if we were together personally the whole day…so sweet… at a resort, we hold hands, hugged, kissed, sing along, wait for the sun come down while I’m lying at his chest and wait for a shooting star to wish that this will come true..ahehe…so sweet talaga…he really gives me a “nikikilig” feeling…and he wipes away my problems and my tears…
march 15, 2007
I knew that daddy and mommy were arguing about some things…mommy opened up to me crying I feel like crying too but again I didn’t showed up because I know mommy would feel bad if she saw me crying…
it is so hard to be brave in front of many people but deep inside I’m so weak crying in the corner, asking for help, but there’s no one…my friends are so cold, im afraid to tell them because I feel that when I’m with them there’s no space for me I feel like I’m left out..because once I’m speaking but no one listens minsan barado pa ko so ako nalang lumayo,umuuwi nalang ako at least doon nakakasama ko si mommy…pero andami kong nalalaman na sobrang sakit para sa pamilya namin…pakiramdam ko nilayuan nila ako kase di na ako gaano sumasama sa kanila na kala nila si arthur ung priority ko…eh kahit nga si arthur andami din naming problema wala nang time for each other but still finding free time lagi pang misunderstanding pag naglalambing ako, lagi pa siyang nagkakasakit…
sobrang gulo ng utak ko nun dahil alam ko may sama ng loob parents ko sa isa’t isa ambigat ng pakiramdam…buti nga nadadaan ko sa ngiti eh…sobra…
tapos dumating pa sa point na nagkasagutan kami ni ate grace one of my closest friend sa tropa a day after our graduation, yun yung grad kase eh…napansin din un ni mommy na hindi nia ko pinapansin ung lumalapit ako taz parang invisible ako si carol si man si shy si joan si Marianne si roni si joey lahat ng classmates naming pinansin nia pagdating sa PICC ako lang hindi…pinalampas ko un…kase nga graduation...tapos paguwi namin, sa car nagopen si mommy “bakit ganun si grace di namamansin?kahit sana gnreet nia lang kami as respect dba?”I remained silent ayoko umiyak pupunta pa kami birthday and triple celebration ng graduation sa pamilya…taz un kinabukasan, tinawag ako ni mommy…un di ko napigilan I told her everything na naging cold nga sila sakin…un sumama loob ni mommy kase kala nia ok ako sa tropa ko taz ganun mangyayari…hai un…
isa pa nung birthday ko wala man lang nakaalala sainu…nung araw ng birthday ko pakiramdsam ko wala na ko sa inu...=(
taz lately lang nakatext ko si caun isa din xa sa closest friend ko sa tropa and we opened up about it…I thought she will understand me but she told me that I’m selfish because they thought bga na arthur is my priority…sana naisip nio kahit konti na mahal ko pamilya ko…it’s not being selfish naman eh…it’s just that I want to spend time with my family because we’re not good and soon we will be apart…ok lang pagisipan niu nako ng kahit ano pagusapan niu nako wag lang pamilya ko…kung pinapakita ko man sainu na ok ako ayoko lang naman magalala kau sakin eh…I think its better na kase ang hirap pag pamilya na ung paguusapan eh…ung kay arthur kase at least kaya ko pa iopen up ung problema namin…ung sa pamilya ko hindi ko parin kaya eh…un kaya ako lumayo nalang kase pakiramdam ko wala na kong space sainu…sinubukan ko magopen pero walang nakikinig eh…un ung masakit eh…
taz nung wala na dito sina mommy ung panganay nalang lagi kong kasama dito sa bahay…lalo akong nadown kase instead na palakasin nia loob ko kung anuano naririnig kong mura na never komg narinig sa magulang ko…
sorry kung ngayon lang nagsalita hindi ko kaya eh…un lang sana patawarin niu ko….sana maintindihan niu…mahal ko po kayo eh sobrang higit pa sa isang kaibigan ingin ko sainiu ayoko po mawala kau sakin pasensya napo mahal ko din pamilya ko…sana maintindihan niu….sana we can start again…sorry…
april 2, 2007
break kami ng mahal ko…di ko alam nangyari…hai…
april 9, 2007
sinama muna ako nina mommy sa Pangasinan ng makapag isip isip makagusp din ng maaus
april 10, 2007
gabi na nun…we will buy things for the house…nang magmukhang bahay naman…paalis na kami nun may dalawang babae sa may gate ng subdivision tinawag si daddy “sir,san kayo?”taz pinakilala kami ni daddy ****ung dalawang babae kapal ng mukha sabi “may asawa pala kayo kala namin wala…****talaga…eh before pa andami na tsismis tungkol kay daddy….un away sila…just look back on my april 10th entry…
april 11, 2007
mommy, janna and I go back to Manila(with swollen eyes) ahehe…we left daddy there sabi sakin ni daddy”sasama ka?”taz umiyak lang ako anghirap eh gusto ko magpaiwan kaso wala naman kasama magbiyahe sina mommy,,,,daddy hugged me tight that made me cried so hard…
april 12,2007
anu meun dito??ahehe…birthday ko…eto lang ung birthday ko na hindi ako happy…grabe iyak ako ng iyak ahehe…walang bumati sakin…uu binati ako ni arthur pero lungkot padin ako…sabihan ka ba naman “may iba nako..”wow birthday gift ba?”taz d ko kasama parents ko pareho magkagalit pa…wala din bumati sakin na friends ko…worst birthday!!!damn!
april 15, 2007
we go back to Pangasinan, un buti ok na sina mommy at daddy…my tito hired me for awhile as file maintenance, basta lahat ng computer works doon…
may 3, 2007
my ahia and tita go there and we go to Baguio…un di ako nagenjoy may namimiss kase ako eh…
may 5, 2007
sumama ako sa manila…may interview ako sa ortigas eh…first time!hahaha…un looking for work na pero anghirap eh…..
I stayed at manila for a month taz wala sobrang depressed buti nga di ako natuluyan wah hahaha….loko lang…taz un sinama ulit ako nina mommy sa Pangasinan
july 2007
pumunta si ahia for vacation…sumama ulit ako pagbalik wala lang.i realized na dito buhay ko sa manila eh…
august 25, 2007
nagkita kami ni jarmaine (pakner coh) bestfriend ko since first year high school…after four years nagkita ulit kami last na kita naming entrance exam pa sa st. paul ahehe..un…wala lang kain all day.,..hahaha
september 6, 2007
dayoff ni tita beng so we went to novaliches wala lang bisita kay lola, saka sa mga maliliit kong pinsan na alaga ko…ahehe
september 20, 2007
sa wakas sumama si bopbop sa Pangasinan…ahehe…nakumpleto ulit kami…katuwa ansayasaya…we attend mass at Our Lady of Manaoag, enjoy the place*mostly restaurants..ahehe..katakawan*,support janna at her cheering…
october 10, 2007
we went back to manila...i passed many resumes before I go naman eh pero ung mga pinupuntahan kong interviews arrgghhh…
october 17, 2007
nabadtrip ako sa bahay eh ahehe,..wala lang ahia kase m16 nanaman hahhaha…ub pumnta ako kina manila taz nagharbour kami…
taz un wala na masyado happenings…tambay sa smith (cousin’s house) wala lang dsl sila nakikiinternet…punta makati at ortigas for interview…
october 22, 2007
nagalaga ako ng bata hahaha…si yesha iniwan sakin ansaya…hahaha 4 years old,…apat na araw lang naman ahehe
november 1, 2007
pumunta kami sementeryo…sa holy cross sa novaliches sa lolo kong intsik…hahaha…
november 5, 2007
naglaba ako nun eh hahaha nagsasampampay kase ako nun eh bigla nagtext si caun nagyayaya sa mcdo birthday nia…un kita kami…kasama nia officemates nia sina janet and rachel…un..ahhehe
november 17, 2007
galing smith nakikain kasama ko si tita Arlene saka ung dalawa ko pang pinsan (Adrian and Justin) taz punta kami rob place taz nagtext si manila puunta dw ako kanila celebration ng birthday nia…tsk3kain nanaman hahaha..kumakain na kami actually nung nagtext siya eh..un…pumunta nalang ako for appearance wah hahaha…un andun na sina caun, shy saka si jp(bangag na officemate ni shy hahaha)peace man…taz maya maya dumating si ate grace…un aheehetaz un di na ko nakakain sobrang busog ice cream nalang hahaha….taz un 10 nagkayayaan magbar...sa malate (wah first time hahaha)un andun na ung officemates ni caun…mga bangag na peo cool ahehe…un uminom kami light lang naman un lang naman kaya ko eh 1bote at kalahati ahehe…good girl ato…wah hai sorry absta sorry kung sino ka man…happenings lang naman…if ever na mababasa mo to sorry…un nakitulog kina janet…2am na kase un eh…
december???la naman pagbabago eh ahehehe...
anyweiz...that's how my 2007 gone thru
i wish and i know that magiging happy na ulit aq this year
yipee
happy new year
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