hayyy..buti nng tpoz n ung extempo speech nmin s socio..grabeh ung npunta p sking topic unexpected talaga>Noli de Castro as the next president<!!!anghirap.. tpoz when i stood at the front of the class and my classmates we're staring at me.. sobrang nakkpresure..lam niu un in juz 2 minutes ssbihin mu ung idea dun s topic..tpoz i hate politics pa!!!but after that parang nabunutan aq ng tinik..thank god..

peo khit gnun..masaya po aq.. kasi...nakabit na ung fone nmin..grabeh almost 3 months din aq hindi nagtelebabad..nakakamiss un xobra..kausap q p bhei q...though nagttxt nman xa...iba prin pg s landline.. tpoz magt3 months n kami.. haayyy.. expect d unexpected talaga...positive and negative effect..ahihihi...

i have a boyfriend...he is sweet, he can make me laugh, he makes me feel the way i want to be loved and everything..he is handsome*chinito mestizo*, tall, he does have riches...in short,he is the man of my dreams..

i love him not for what he have..but instead of what he really is..

we are already three months this month..in that three months it seems that no one can break our relationship...that our love is perfect...in fact, he built a business*a computer shop*...he keeps on telling me that he is preparing for our future...he also keep on telling me that he will never leave me..and how much he love me...

but the problem is... because of our busy schedules and tiring days we lacked on communicating he is leaving their house at 4am and come back home at almost 12am; misunderstanding and whatsoever..

he has a friend who is a friend of a famous singer...he excitedly told me what happened during he was introduced to this singer..he knew that this singer has a big crush on him...*unbelievable but true*i kept silent but deep inside it hurt me a lot..becase why of all women*sikat pa?!anu laban ko dun!?*

as days passed by he texted me he feels so bored of our relationship..just because of this famous singer...this line keeps on playing in my mind "san b ko nagkulang?!ginawa ko naman lahat eh.!?pero bkit ganun...?!"when he texted me that message he called me up sa landline.. i noticed that he was crying too...for almost one week n ko umiiyak..d p nia skin naeexplain kung ano talaga nangyari...ang hirap magmahal...

hayyy..anhirap magmahal...ansakitsakit...isang linggo na ko umiiyak..yuck ang panget q na wala n qng mata...ung pillow ko pwede nang pigain sa bigat ng luha...ahihihi...

pero if ever he will still come back...is it right na pumayag p ko...?!pero i really love him..i don't wanna lose him...help naman guys...

thanks god..tpos na midterms..brain twisters ung exams.. grabeh..*knees shakin for the results*ahahaha...omg talaga...arrgh..

tapos nkisabay p ung break up namin..haayy too bad..!i don't wanna cry anymore but i can't help it..when i am reminiscing the past..oh my gosh..mah tears..makakaipon ng three drums of water...buahaha...i love him so much...how i wish mapagod ren ako sa pagiyak at pagintay..pero ayoko..hahaha*anlabo ko*

last night... my friend was online at yahoo messenger..

then the next day...she asked me if i was online too..eh hindi naman...tapos she asked me "eh sino ung kachat ko kagabi?"

*my former boyfriend miguel is the only person who knows my password..*

tapos my friend began telling me their conversation...tinanong raw ng friend ko kung my assignment kami for today..tapos nagreply daw sabi raw nia "hindi 'to si aryl, bf nia 'to si miguel" tapos un..d n nagreply friend ko...

what does it mean..???may plano nanaman ba siya???help po!!anlabo kase eh..d ko pa siya kaya kausapin..baka one word from him palang iyak n ko...

last night i was online at yahoo messenger..my status message was the chorus part of the song bakit ba by siakol..i did'nt noticed that he was online too..he sent me a personal message sayin "muzta?ok ka na ba?"but then i said "ako?!ewan ko..eh ikaw?!"tapos sabi nia "eto medyo ok lang naman" then few minutes di kame naguusap tapos nagpm ulit siya sabi nia "sana maging ok ka n" tapos nadisconnect na ko..

again my tears fall..i don't know why..i told yah only one word from him iyak n agad ako...haayy s muzta pa lang naiyak n ko..

sana bukas may luha pang lumabas s mata ko...oo na..tanga na ko kung tanga..manhid na kung manhid..basta ngaun isa lang  po alam ko mahal na mahal ko parin siya...

life has too many decisions to make that if you made the wrong decision you might
regret at the end. one of those decision-making i am in now is that i have two suitors
and i really like both of them. 

one of them has some of the qualities i like pero medyo playboy..actually i just knew
him sa chatroom..then he send me a personal message and ask for usual questions for a chatmate..
he added me in friendster and in his friends list at ym..and then i noticed that he is
"spencer reyes look-a-alike" named miguel...he's so cute..he began to call me baby pink sa chatroom and
make away to  those who are teasing me sa room..sabi nia dun s mga nangbabara sken..
awaayin n rw nila lahat wag lng baby pink nia..d siyempre ako naman lovestruck na lovestruck..
ehehe..ikaw ba naman pagtanggol ka ng kamukha ng former crush mo..d ka naman ba kikiligin..
tapos nagyayaya ng eyeball..d siyempre medyo pakipot..oo nga pala almost 2 weeks ko na siya kachat
every night yun..11pm onwards..ahihihi...ang babaw ko talaga kahit kailan..haayy naku.. atenista
'to mga pare kaya nga lang isa sa mga ayaw ko sa kanya bukod sa playboy..mayabang peo ok lng...un lng..that's all for now..yoko muna magsalita or what..ahihihi

• the other one naman is a mapuan student incoming fourth year a comsci student rin parang
  ako..may hawig naman siya sa present crush ko si yael, the lead vocalist of spongecola halos ganun
  rin kung paanu ko siya konti lang ang pinagkaiba s friendster..pero inadd niya ako sa ym niya
  kaya yun..eto naman parang masyadong mabait..ahihihi..nung nagmeet kami d naman talaga pinalano..
  kasi ung friends ko ang kulit eh..pinapunta nila.. kaya un..then un nga i noticed that
  he can't keep his eyes off of me.. kala ko nga may dumi n ko sa mukha eh...un lng den muna..
• haayyy naku..naguguluhan talaga ko ayoko kasi makasakit at the same time i don't want
  to be hurt..anlabo noh..?!mga friends..advice naman...!!!babalitaan ko kayo kung anung nangyayari..
  sadyang mababaw lang talaga akong tao..tinatamad na kasi ako magsulat sa diary ko..eh since
  lagi naman akong nakaonline..dito nalang..i will take your advices in a positive way..promise..!
  

i am already tired of crying...mababaw lng akong tao..kaya mabilis lang ako mapasaya o mapaiyak ng isang tao lalo nakung mahal na mahal ko..

pero pag naaalala ko yung mga ginawa niya for me..bumababalik aq sa pagiging tanga...katulad nung pagtatanggol nia sakin pag may nangbabara sakin..tapos..nung pupunta n sila ng china ng family nia nagparesched siya ng flight...tapos tumuloy siya sbi nia he will stay two weeks there but still bumalik agad siya nung gabi...tapos nagkapeklat siya dahil sakin..kase inasar ko..nagselos tuloy..sinuntok ung salamin..eh kase ba naman itanung daw b kung sabay daw ba sila nangligaw ni alex band siya pa rin ba daw sasagutin ko *eh alam niyang ultimate crush ko si alex band*malamang ang isasagot ko si alex band*bumili pa naman siya ng cd ng the calling tapos sinira lang nia...tapos sinuntok pa yung salamin...nafracture tuloy kamay nia..you know what i did..?instead of comforting him..inaway ko pa..bad noh..ahihihi..eh kase naman kababawan..sa lahat pa ng pagseselosan un pang nasa ibang bansa..pero siyempre we can't end our conversation without saying sorry..he was the one who did that..as usual i cried..

haayyy...reminiscing the past...

It took
one look
and forever lay out in front of me

One smile
then I die
only to be revived by you

There I was
thought I had everything
figured out
goes to show just how much I know
bout the way life plays out

i take one step away
and I find myself coming back
to you
my one and only
one and only
you..

Now I know
that I know not a thing at all
except the fact that I am yours
and that you are mine

Oh,
if you told me that it wouldn't be easy
and Oh,
I'm not one to complain

we have many similarities like we are taking up the same course..favorite songs..favorite dish..we are both chinese**though nalahian lang ako*almost30%**..then once,we we're talking over the phone andd we we're both playing our mp3's..then coincidentally..*sabay ung pagplay ng next song accidentally in love pa!*ehehe

wala lang..ehehehe...wala na eh...dito ko lang nabubuhos lahat-lahat...ansarap talaga magreminisce...haayyy...foolish aryl...

bakit ganun..?!kung kailan sinabi ko sa sarili ko na kailangan ko na magmove on..and i will do my best just not cry..here he is...he called me sa landline kanina lang...nangagamusta...sabi ko.."ewan ko..d ko alam... kung ano at paano ko sasagutin tanong mo"again my tears fall..until now... narinig ko palang boses niya..iyak n ako..i kept silent..tapos sabi nia "ano tatahimik nlng na tayo?"i really don't know what to say..tapos wala lang umiiyak kase ako eh...di ako makapagsalita...

marami akong gustong itanong sa kanya..kaso d ko alam kung san ako magsisimula hanggang may nagincoming sa kanya..tapos binababa ko na..sabay online..

i still love him so much..i don't know...how can i move on?

Wala akong happenings today eh...eto nalang...ahihihihi)

I heard from a friend today
And she said you were in town
Suddenly the memories came back to me in my
Mind


How can I be strong I've asked myself
Time and time I've said
That I'll never fall in love with you again

A wounded heart you gave
My soul you took away
Good intentions you had many
I know you did

I come from a place that hurts
And God knows how I've cried
And I never want to return
never fall again

Making love to you
Oh it felt so good and
Oh so right

So here we are alone again'
Didn't think it'd come to this
And to know it all began
With just a little kiss

I've come too close to happiness
To have it swept away
Don't think I can take the pain
No never fall again

Kinda late in the game and my heart is in
Your hands
Don't you stand there and then
Tell me you love
Me then leave again
Cause I'm falling in love with
You again

Hold me
Hold me
Don't ever let me go
Say it just one time
Say you love me
God knows I do
Love you
Again

Take this kiss upon thy brow!
And, in parting from you now,
Thus much let me avow—
You are not wrong, to deem
That my days have been a dream;
Yet if hope has flown away
In a night, or in a day,
In a vision, or in none,
Is it therefore the less gone?
All that we see or seem
Is but a dream within a dream.

I stand amid the roar
Of a surf-tormented shore,
And I hold within my hand
Grains of the golden sand—
How few! yet how they creep
Through my fingers to the deep,
While I weep—while I weep!
O God! can I not grasp
Them with a tighter clasp?
O God! can I not save
One from the pitiless wave?
Is all that we see or seem
But a dream within a dream?